Flock of Cats is the culmination of a lifelong passion.

It also feels like I’m going out on a limb.

I’ve been writing and producing music since I was about 16 years old. Being a musician is all I ever really wanted to do.

I played in my first band in high school. I played drums. I don’t play drums.

We knew three songs and didn’t have a vocalist. Believe it or not, we did a show.

And I was hooked.

In college, I played guitar and keyboards in a band called The Move. That stoked my dream of being a professional musician.

I got to live that dream for nearly a decade.

My wife at the time and I performed as a duo called Kinetic Fist. Our music was aimed at Christian teens and college-aged folks. In the final year we performed, we did over 100 gigs. However, Christian rock-n-roll wasn’t exactly lucrative. When we had our daughter, it became financially unsustainable, and we had to hang it up.

In retrospect, we had a pretty successful run. But when we had to quit, it felt like failure. The voices in my head from my youth telling me, “You can never be a successful musician,” played on a loop in my head. It was a long time before I picked up an instrument again.

As the saying goes, time heals all wounds. I eventually began writing and playing again for my own enjoyment. I even picked up my childhood instrument — the saxophone. The hodgepodge of songs currently on the music page is the fruit of that labor.

For the last three or four years, I’ve had this nagging itch to produce a record.

Why didn’t I?

To be completely honest, I’m scared.

Those voices looping in my brain started up again. What if nobody listens? What if it sucks? What’s the point?

So, I kept putting it off and putting it off.

It’s time to stop putting it off.

And here we are.

I have no idea how this will play out. I have no idea if anybody will listen. But you know what? It doesn’t matter. I’m doing this for myself. I’m doing this in an effort to inject something good into the world. I’m doing it because I was put on this earth to create.

And so create I shall.

Stay tuned!